Monday, February 04, 2008

Negative

The last time we spoke, I forgot to say "bye". I think the doorbell rang or something, can't quite remember now. When Maya runs about the house looking for you, her silver anklets make the most delicate kind of music. Like paper thin bangles, just two of them, at a flirty young conversation. Or pale Christmas tree ornaments after the fire has died out. I only believed in fairies bacause they wear gauzy silver wings. Don't tell me they are not real, I know, ofcourse. But they are beautiful anyhow, aren't they?

Are you afraid to return because you think I'll ask you to stay? But I always knew that nothing could hold you. I never even tried. Your mind is a mass of confused unbridled silver wires. And you electrify everyone on the way as you go along. With your mad angry stories and your lost grey eyes. When I paint in a single colour, it makes me feel guilty. Like I'm insulting your memory. But i cannot paint in white. That's more your thing, isnt it? "I like you because you're a red cloud" you had said.
You're the sky. Blue, purple, grey, white. Always stormy, always quiet. And always free. I think the doorbell rang. What do you paint these days? Red roses white?

9 comments:

~Moo-lah Buz!nezzz~ said...

Who's Maya???!!

Random Doodler said...

I dont quite know.

coffee stain said...

maya ki mother earth....
i just hope some day you write about what you wrote about... deep and very ....well i still want to read/hear more.....

Roger Stevens said...

Some nice stuff. (This written with 6B pencil.)

ray said...

Hi ,

I was reading ur blog posts and found some of them to be wow.. u write well.. Why don't you popularize it more.. ur posts on ur blog ‘Sketches’ took my particular attention as some of them are interesting topics of mine too;

BTW I help out some ex-IIMA guys who with another batch mate run www.rambhai.com where you can post links to your most loved blog-posts. Rambhai was the chaiwala at IIMA and it is a site where users can themselves share links to blog posts etc and other can find and vote on them. The best make it to the homepage!

This way you can reach out to rambhai readers some of whom could become your ardent fans.. who knows.. :)

Cheers,

Aphrodite said...

@maya as in like in DTPH??an imaginary character of a beutiful maiden....???aye??

Random Doodler said...

@Aphrodite: Right. IT took me a while to figure out what was DTPH. But no. Maya could be anything.
I dont quite know.

Anonymous said...

Are you still writing/posting? Randomly stumbled across your site - would love to read some more. :-)

~Moo-lah Buz!nezzz~ said...

DTPH.. :P ... heh heh.... but but i wud love to read some more,in case u r writing.... :D